Friday, May 31, 2013

"You Better Not Leave My Church!"


Any of us who have gone to church before have heard the threats the preachers have hurled at us when we told him (or her) that we were leaving their church....

"You need a covering!"
"You will be cursed if you leave this church!"
"You are outside the will of God if you go..."
"You are not saved (backslidden) if you are not here..."

Some of the preachers were bold enough to just say it, preach it from the pulpit, hurled at you like a boomerang!

Other preachers didn't say any of these things to your face in fears of being labeled as unloving.

But once you are gone, they will 'preach on' the ones who left, who 'abandoned ship,' they will call you 'Judas.'  They will turn the whole congregation against you and make it seem that YOU were the problem.  YOU were the 'devil.'  YOU were causing strife and division.

And really, there is no one person that 'causes' strife and division among a group of people.  The fact of the matter is if you have two people in a setting, those two people are not going to agree on SOME thing.  That is division.  

Church people have this inclination to label a situation as 'strife' when two people simply do not see eye-to-eye on the situation.  Invariably, the 'disagreement' is blown out of proportion, most times by the leader or pastor whose ego was bruised because a 'sheep' dared to challenge him/her on a teaching or doctrine.

I want to help you out here.

1)  The Church 'Curse

NO ONE can curse you.  But YOU.  The devil can't curse you.  Your pastor/leader can't curse you.  Your enemy can't curse you.  Your ex husband or ex wife...they can't curse you.

The Word of God says a curse causeless will not stand. (Proverbs 26:2)

That means if there is NO reason for a curse to stay, it won't.  And if you are BLESSED of the Lord, then NO MAN can CURSE YOU!!!!!  (Genesis 12:3, Numbers 12:2, Galatians 3:13)

You are BLESSED, and it is NOT a matter of location.  It is a matter of POSITION IN CHRIST.  The Word says we are seated in heavenly places with Christ Jesus, FARRRRRRRRR above ALL principalities, and powers.  

You are BLESSED whether you're in the city, in the field, leaving a place, going to a place, everything you put your  hands to is BLESSED!!  Go read Deut. 28...study it.  

THATS YOU!!!!

2) "You Better Come to Church!"

Your salvation is NOT dependent upon church attendance.  Your salvation is a matter of FAITH.  (Ephesians 2:8, Luke 7:50, Luke 18:42). I want you to pay close attention to the scriptures in Luke, btw.  Did you see that after Jesus Christ of Nazareth healed those people (according to THEIR faith), WHAT did He tell them afterwards?

"YOUR FAITH HATH SAVED THEE!"

When you are REALLY saved, NOBODY and I DO mean NOBODY, can shake that faith in your salvation.  NOBODY can tell you you are NOT saved.  YOU KNOW IT!!!!

Don't let these bully leaders tell you you ain't saved because you are not dancing to their song and dance, or putting your money in their collection plates.  Or 'obeying' THEM.  

It is your obedience TO GOD, not obedience TO MAN, that will save you!!!!

I mean - if church attendance was all there was to being saved, there would be a WHOLE lotta folks saved, don't you think?

But look at them..(churchgoers). 

If you watch the lives of church attenders, you would see some CRAZY stuff!  Just sit back and watch.  

There are more whoremongers, lesbians, homosexuals, down lows, molesters, thieves, robbers, extortionists, rapists and just plain old criminals......IN CHURCH!

I'm not talking about REFORMED, REHABILITATED, DELIVERED criminals.

NO!

I'm talking about folks who shout the house down on Sunday.  Then on Wednesday they are in at the gay club tryna pick up their spoogie for the night.  And THESE are PREACHERS!

So, my Bible tells me that such people WON'T inherit the Kingdom of Heaven.  (Ephesians 5:5)

I don't see anywhere in the Word where it says 'If you don't attend church, if you leave a church, then you shall not be saved...'

It's NOT there!

3) "YOU need a Covering...."

And this covering thing...let me tell you something.  YOU DO NOT NEED 'A COVERING!'

That is a man-made lie to keep you under the control of your pastor, your apostle, your bishop, your leader. As a matter of fact, in Isaiah 30:1, God called the Israelites 'obstinate' and 'rebellious' for going get 'a covering.'

Isaiah 30:1

"WOE to the rebellious children that take counsel, but not of me....that cover with a covering, but NOT of MY Spirit, that they may add sin to sin...."

This covering doctrine was made up by charismatics and pentecostals who think that you and I need THEM to live for God, to live holy, to be delivered.  

When from what I can see, ALL I NEED is to TRUST GOD, have FAITH IN GOD, and OBEY GOD....and HE WILL COVER ME!!!!!!!!  

He will cover YOU, too!

But in order for HIM to cover you, you got to get rid of all those other 'covers.'  

NO MORE SHEETS!!!!!  FOR REAL!!!!!!!!!

Even in the Garden of Eden, when Adam and Eve went to get leaves to COVER themselves their nakedness, God saw it and rebuked them.

God does not want us to attempt to cover OURSELVES.  That is what He sent Jesus Christ of Nazareth for....so that HIS BLOOD could not only COVER but WASH away our sins!

LET THE BLOOD DO ITS JOB!!!!!!!

NO MORE MAN MADE COVERINGS!

4) In the Will of God, Backslidden if you not in Church????

I think this one really sends me reeling when I hear preachers use this one.

Look.  

I have written an entire other blog post on 'being backslidden,' entitled 'The Religious Lie of Backslidding.'

I think that this is the most reprehensible, diabolical teachings of all.  If the preacher can get YOU to believe that you have 'backslided' and are not in the will of God for leaving their church, then they have gotten you in a state of FEAR.  They are now controlling you; they see you love God and want to be in the will of God.  So they use that love FOR GOD against you by making you believe that being faithful to THEIR church is somehow your ticket into being 'in the will of God.'  

If you don't stay, then they say you are 'rebellious' and outside of His will.

This whole 'will of God' thing is another blog in itself, but I will attempt to summarize here.

The will of GOD is not determined by what WE DO.  The will of GOD is determined SOLELY BY GOD.

It is HIS WILL.  And best believe, HE WILL do HIS WILL!

Us going to church and paying obeisance to a man, allowing ourselves to be 'covered' by a man, being in alliance with a man who is most probably IN SIN, THAT is NOT the will of God.  I can PROMISE you that!

When we just do what God says, then we are in THE WILL OF GOD.  

And I want you to go read my post on backsliding.  You will be surprised at the lies these preachers have told you.

WHY?

Because they are wanting to CONTROL you.  They want you to continue to go to church to get your money.  Or to exploit you.  Your gifts.  They have found a way to gain off you..and if you leave, they will lose out.

THIS is why the preachers seek to CONTROL and MANIPULATE you.  

They use these and other fear tactics, abuse their authority and say GOD is in it...when He is NOT!

Do not allow preachers to do this to you.

Get in your Word.  Seek God.  And know HIS WILL for your life...FOR YOURSELF!



Sunday, May 26, 2013

Do You Have An Spiritual Infestation????


YUCK!!!!!!

That is SO nasty!  Creepy!  Makes you itch, doesn't it?

Many times, folks have an infestation in their home and don't even know it!

The only time you will know what's plaguing you is when you have been pre-informed on the symptoms, the signs that your house has been infested!

Yes, I know about this, unfortunately.  

It became necessary for my son and I to seek the help of a domestic violence shelter for our safety.  We lived in a Motel 6 for a short time, til money ran out...then I had to swallow my pride and seek the assistance of a shelter.

We found a slot available after a few days...we were so glad to be there.  We thought, 'Whew!  We have finally found safety!  Help.  We can go on with our lives!'

We settled in that first night, went to bed, then BAMMM!  

Once the lights went out and we were asleep, we were ASSAULTED by bed bugs!!!!!!!!!

I never seen a bed bug, only heard the little saying, 'Nite, nite.  Don't let the bed bugs bite!'  All I know is that I started itching all over.  My son was whining in his sleep in the bunk bed above me...and I was like WHAT is going on!

I turned my cell phone light on and to my HORROR there were these red little bugs all on my pillow.  I saw blood on my pillow, on my sheets...I was like WHAT THE?????

I got up turned the lights on and stayed up the whole night keeping those bugs off my baby!

The next morning I went to the staff and thats when they decided to tell me, 'we do have a bed bug problem...you are free to leave if you want...'  Well, here we were with NO money, nowhere to go.  We had no choice but to stay.  

My son and I suffered every night with bed bugs for two months straight.  It was one of the most humiliating, debilitating experiences EVER!

I found a job in NY and saved up enough money to get our place in that two months time.  NOBODY was happier than we were when we moved out that shelter!

And when we moved in our new place, the only way I was able to keep those bugs OUT of our home was to THROW EVERYTHING AWAY!!!!!!!!  Start all over from scratch.  

Everything we gained in that shelter, stuff folks gave to us, gifts, donations, etc, I threw all that away once we moved into our home.

And I am GLAD to say my son and I have NEVER seen a bed bug since leaving that shelter!

Anybody who has ever had a bed bug infestation knows that there can be emotional stuff that lingers as a result of all that.  Loss of sleep, paranoia, getting 'the itchies,' and all that can happen as a result of long tern lack of sleep are just a few things some experience -some long tern, some short term - as a result of their experience with 'bed bugs.'

I want to show you how a 'bed bug infestation' in a home is MUCH like a 'demonic infestation' in a church.

A lot of times, folks go to church seeking help, assistance, whether it be natural or spiritual.  Very real needs are present and it's a good thing they seek help in the time of trouble.  ALL of us need help sometimes!

So they go to church....expecting help.  Help seeking God, getting saved, delivered, etc.  And once you step foot inside the church, there is a sigh of relief that most exhales--just from being 'in the house.'  In 'the ark of safety.'  Sheltered (supposedly) from the forces of darkness.  Now 'you're covered.'  

You feel like 'the pastor's got us' or 'now you're sheltered' and you don't have to 'fight' alone.  

This is especially true of single mothers and their kids.

Then once you get settled in, you start 'itching.'  You start seeing signs of injury, perhaps your blood has been spilled.  You start getting 'tormented.'  You start dealing with 'things' you ain't NEVER had to deal with before...and yet, you don't know WHERE it's coming from!

You go to the pastor, you go to church...and, of course, the pastor, the mothers, the new convert's teacher all tell you 'the devil is fighting you since you're now in church.  Don't let that stop you.  The more you come to church, the more the devil is going to fight you and try to stop you from coming...'

And because it sounds good, it makes sense and you want to belong, you accept that as a viable excuse for all the HELL you're going through.  

It never ONCE crosses your mind that the torment is NOT the devil on the outside (of the church) trying to 'keep you from going back to church.'

I mean COME ON!  Think about it!

IF God is the HEAD, and your church is 'the bride,' and the enemy is supposed to be 'outside the doors of your church,' just waiting to pounce on you and keep you from coming back, then WHAT explains all the torment going on on THE INSIDE OF YOUR CHURCH?????????

If GOD is GOD, then shouldn't He be God OVER ALL?????

Couldn't He keep the enemy from biting you?  Tormenting you?  And your babies?  

I understand...it is a blow to what you've been taught.  

I want to give a short list that will help you tell if YOUR church has a demonic infestation:

  1)  Continual strife and confusion...IN the house
  2)  Folks can't stop sexing. Lust fills the air of your 'church.'  You feel it from the pulpit.
  3)  Greed, covetousness and continual pressuring of giving financially to different programs
  4)  Extreme control, manipulation from leadership (i.e., you have to ask pastor if what color to wear, where     
       to live, who to marry, etc.)
  5)  Unexplained bouts of depression, mania, fear, thoughts of suicide....things you NEVER dealt with 
       BEFORE going to church start to plague you AFTER going to church
  6)  You are constantly bombarded with 'visions,' dreams and the such of ministering to the nations.  
  7)  You feel like it is your God-mandated responsibility to 'get your church right.'  Thats why even though 
       you SEE the blatant error, you continue to go...thinking it's your 'calling.'
  8)  Extreme legalism...(can't wear this, do that, have this in your house, etc.)
  9)  Leadership forbids you to seek ministry anywhere outside of their jurisdiction
10)  An over emphasis on supernatural signs, shouting, dancing, kundalini, laughing in the spirit, rolling in the   
       floor, etc. 

By and large, if your church is consistently focused on the flesh, on the outward things, on comfort here and now, if your pastor has fallen into sin....over and over again..., these are telltale signs you are in a DEMON fest...and need to do like FORREST GUMP......

RUNNNNNNNN!!!!!!!!!!

I kid you not, I knew of a church in Louisiana (I will be nice and not name names because a lot of you would know of it if I told you a name).  I visited this church...this church has a long history in the city its located in, highly respected, VERY charismatic/pentecostal.  GREAT singers, much praise.  But they are also known to literally lock you in their services at a certain point in the service, as to not 'disturb the spirit of God.'  

My cousin took me to this church to visit and I was like, 'Where are you taking me?'  She was like, 'Trust me, we will just go in and out....I promise!'  

So we get to this church, and the service is VERY 'lively,' to say the least!  Lots of shouting, dancing, singing, running the aisles, speaking in tongues, etc.  Stuff I was used to.

I didn't do anything though, because my spirit was really VEXED.  

I mean, on the outside, all seemed real 'spiritual.'  This was a historically baptist church, with a little charismatic/pentecostal flavor...and since I had grown up baptist, and converted to pentecostalism (then), I was like 'Ok.'

But my spirit was V.E.X.E.D.!!!!

I look down on the floor, and I KID YOU NOT...there was a HUGE COCKROACH!  The FLYING kind! I was like 'WHAT THE??????'

I moved to another aisle to get away from the roach, and lo and behold, WAYYYY across the aisle on the other side of the church, I sit.  Feeling really awkward at that point...b/c I have NEVER been in a church with HUGE COCKROACHES like that before!!!!!

I sit down, go to put my purse down, and on the floor are two dead cockroaches!

At that point, I did want to cuss, but the Holy Ghost stopped me!!!!!

So at that point, amidst all the shouting, dancing, praying, etc., I was like 'ENOUGH.'  I go for the door, and this huge dude usher clamps down on the door and says to me 'No one can leave while the spirit is moving!'

My mouth dropped to the floor!  I was like 'Uhhhhh????'

I went back into the church to look for my cousin, I stopped her dancing and clapping, pulled her to the side and was like 'Uh, we gotta go.  And WHY are these people LOCKING US IN HERE?'  

She just laughed and said 'Oh, they just do that.  Sit down.  Relax.  We won't be long...'  

I was TOOOO done!  

To make a long story short, an HOUR later, they finally let us out the church!  Smh.

That's a funny story (a REAL one, btw!) of crazy church and a weird infestation...but I want to present to you that many churches are JUST LIKE THAT church.

They stomp, holler, jump, speak in tongues, dance, hoop, prophesy....all ON TOP of demons.  

They think that all that natural activity is going to 'keep them under their feet.' Keep the devil at bay.  Give them victory.

And I also want to add that there obviously was a demonic infestation at that church as well.  How do I know?  

Because of the rampant homosexuality and DL-ism that is resident there!  (Please don't ask me how I know!  Just take my word for it!)

I do liken demons to bugs, roaches.  They both are nasty, creepy.  And once you got an infestation on your hands, the only way to get rid of them is to throw AWAY any and everything that they live in.

Just like when I transitioned from the shelter to my home and had to throw away ALL my stuff and start afresh...so is it with transitioning OUT OF CHURCH.

EVERYTHING you learned in church HAS TO BE DISCARDED, THROWN OUT.  You have to be willing to start afresh.  UNLEARN and RELEARN even the most fundamental of things.

I was so serious about making SURE I carried nothing into my new home that I had me and my son take off the coats, boots, and clothes we had on our backs and threw those bad boys into the HOTTEST DRYER to kill off any bugs that even thought about lingering onto us!

If you expose bed bugs to EXTREME HEAT, like the kind in a dryer, they will die.

That stuff you GOTTA keep from what you learned in church, don't be afraid to PUT IT TO THE FIRE!!!!!!!!

1 Corinthians 2:13
EVERY man's work shall be made manifest, it will be revealed by fire; the fire shall try every man's work, to see what sort it is...

I dare you to read that ENTIRE chapter.  It is a POWERFUL chapter.

Don't be afraid to put what you have believed about God, the Word, WHATEVER knowledge you've gained while in church...to the FIRE.

Don't let GOD have to put it to the fire.  YOU DO IT!

If it be of God, if He wants you to keep it...God will allow you to keep it.

But first things first.

If you are suffering in your church, DO NOT THINK that its God trying to teach you something.  The Spirit of the Lord can teach you things without you having to suffer.  Yes, due to OUR OWN STUBBORNNESS and STIFF-NECKNESS (I know that's not a word...lol), He may allow suffering.  But that's only after Him just telling you, 'Thats not me, don't receive that.  Don't believe that.  Don't touch that, or don't do that...' and you DON'T take heed, then that's when He has to let you go through.

I know there are some who TRULY believe that it is their job, their 'calling,' to go back or stay in a church where clearly God has revealed to them is demonically infested...

They feel like they are the 'spiritual Terminix, spiritual Orkin.'  They proudly exclaim, 'Im staying in my house of God!  It's ride or die!  The gates of hell shall not prevail!  Im a prayer warrior!  I got the goods to deliver!'

What I say to you is 'YOU ARE THE MOST DECEIVED OF THEM ALL!'

To share more of my story about the shelter, Terminix had been treating that house for 8 months straight...6 months before we arrived there!  AT LEAST once per month, sometimes twice.  But with all that power, with all the testimonials of how great Terminix does, all the latest equipment and pesticides...and THEY couldn't get this thing under control.....

WHY?

BECAUSE there is a difference between a bug problem...and an infestation!

Anyone who has dealt with pesticides and pest control will tell you, there is a point where it is best to abandon the house...MOVE....when you have an infestation.  Save what you can, salvage what you can salvage...and just start afresh.

For the health of the residents they will suggest this.  Its not a matter of who has the goods or who is more powerful, Terminix or the bugs?

There are health risks to being exposed to bugs for a long period of time.

What a lot of these spiritual wonders do not realize is that they can suffer things God NEVER meant for them to suffer from staying around a demon infestation for a long period of time.

At some point, I do believe God loves us so much that HE will say "ENOUGH is ENOUGH," and HE will tell you to leave a spiritually dangerous place.  NOT because HE isn't all powerful, or that you're not saved, or whatever....

BUT BECAUSE HE SEES HOW ITS BEGINNING TO AFFECT YOU SPIRITUALLY!!!!!

I have known some for real saved folks who have literally lost their minds behind some of these churches.  Who stayed in the churches when they SAW what was wrong.  After God TOLD THEM to go...maybe not so much in an audible voice, but when you see a house imploding from the inside, and danger is lurking and you still are hardheaded and say, 'Im gonna stay and hold up the walls!  This is my house of God!'

That is foolish...and the surefire rantings and mockings of a religious spirit that SOUNDS like God.  But it is the plot of the enemy to DESTROY YOU!

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SO ask yourself...."DO WE HAVE AN INFESTATION?"

You just may....

WHAT are YOU gonna do about it?

Saturday, May 25, 2013

THE RESURRECTION OF TONEX!!!!!!



For those of you who don't know who this is, this is Anthony Williams, Jr., f.k.a. Tonex, now known as B. Slade.

To make a really long story short, Tonex was a very successful gospel artist...six Stellar Awards, 2 Grammys, and has produced and written tons of songs not only for himself, but for others.

I don't want to downplay this man's talent.  I have NEVER heard anyone sing like Tonex before!  Plus, the man plays a lot of instruments.  He is VERY talented...and as a music lover, I can honestly say NO ONE IN THE GOSPEL MUSIC INDUSTRY HAS EVEN TOUCHED the level of success that he did when he was on the scene....

But none of us out here in the public knew the struggles he had.  As I watched this video he made as B. Slade, it brought some insight into what kind of background Tonex REALLY had:




There was abuse and molestation in his apostolic upbringing.  And apparently, NO ONE did anything about it.  No one got him the help he needed to deal with that level of pain.  They just kept taking him to church,.

To the very place where the pain was inflicted.  Undoubtedly by someone in leadership in church!

So here goes this young, talented, anointed boy who is introduced to a plethora of emotions, stirrings, desires, and emotions at WAY too young of an age to deal with it...in a healthy manner.

And as is common when abuse happens inside church, everyone shouts and dances and speaks in tongues over it.  NO ONE DEALS WITH THE ISSUES IN CHURCH!

I mean, after all, he is a man.  He could deal with it, right?  He is anointed.  He is a preacher's kid.  So everyone said, 'Anthony will be fine... he's got God.'

And so he grew up, perfected his craft.  Threw himself into it, as a matter of fact.  Its what he slept, ate, lived for....and there is a love for God that I believe was there.

But in the midst of all that he was accomplishing, NO ONE (including himself) were dealing with what was happening ON THE INSIDE.

And we all got to see the culmination of all of that being bottled up inside of him...when he came out the closet three years ago as openly gay.  Changed his name to B. Slade.  ROCKED the church world....

But because church folks simply DO NOT know how to deal with the LGBT community...let alone minister to them, they did what they always do...

They blackmailed him.  They ousted him out of the music industry.  They put him out there....BAD!
This is a song Tonex made in the midst of all that upheavel called 'holy-NESS.'

That whole 'Oak Park' project, as well as 'Unspoken,' was his musical expression of pain...the pain of rejection from former comrades in the ministry and music industry who all but turn their backs on him just because he had the courage to at least COME OUT.

One thing I will say is that I can respect a man who isn't fake, and will be what he believes he is...even if that thing is wrong.  I don't condone the LGBT lifestyle.  I don't make excuses for it.  I think it is dead wrong, and a gross perversion of the TRUE LOVE that God gives us to share.  We CAN help who we love!

But that's another blog for another day....

I respect that Williams didn't do like SOOOO many of these preachers in the church do...they either molest and rape children, give women AIDS or go on the DL....No.

Williams didn't do that.  He said, 'Hey, this is what I am.  This is what I like...'  I can respect a person who won't LIE about his desires, preferences and lifestyle.

The problem is that SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO many in ministry and the gospel music industry are on the down low...they HAD to throw stones at Tonex to deflect attention from themselves!
And I believe THAT"S what hurt Tonex even more.

No, I don't have proof, but I wouldn't be surprised if the very ones who threw the biggest stones at him were not secretly calling and texting him in the middle of the night for a nightcap!

THAT IS WHAT WE HAVE GOING ON IN THE MINISTRY NOW!!!!!!!

So I write this to send some love to the artist formerly known as TONEX.

Man, I MISS YOU.  I MISS YOUR MUSIC, YOUR PREACHING.  YOU WERE REAL.  I'M SORRY THEY DID THAT TO YOU!!!!

AND I AM PRAYING FOR YOU!!!!!!

THE RESURRECTION OF TONEX!!!!!

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If you're struggling with your own sexuality, I want to share with you MY OWN PERSONAL STORY of deliverance and TRUE sexual healing.






"Down Low Deliverance: BE SET FREE!" is my own story of how sexual abuse in the church led to my own struggle with my sexuality...and how GOD set me free from sexual bondage and confusion.

Sunday, May 19, 2013

Why Isn't Anyone Else Bothered By Iyanla 'Fixing' the Pace Sisters?





"Hurt Feelings During the Healing Process
During the healing process, Iyanla says, there will be moments when the Pace Sisters, gospel singers who've struggled with obesity, feel uncomfortable. After a tense discussion around the dining table, Leslie Pace told producers she felt attacked by Iyanla. Watch as Iyanla discusses the conflict with Leslie and asks the sisters to look inward before pointing fingers at her."

Ok.

It is no secret how I view Iyanla 'fixing' everyone's life.  But for those of you who don't know my stance on that, here goes:  Iyanla is a Yoruban priestess.  Yoruba is this African religion that goes off into some weird, satanic, voo doo, pre-destination, humanistic stuff that I don't have time to get into.  But if you click on the Yoruba link, I PROMISE you what you read of it will send you reeling!

SOOOO...

With that in mind, I wonder how is it that this voo doo (ahem, excuse me.  I mean Yoruban) priestess has all of a sudden become so all-knowing, so 'powerful,' so sought after in the African American community?  Even by those who claim Jesus Christ of Nazareth as Lord, those who say they love God, are anointed...saved AND sanctified.....

WHY ARE YOU SEEKING THE HELP OF A WITCH FOR DELIVERANCE??????????????

Don't get me wrong:  I love the singing of these girls.  I STILL am blessed by 'Just Because God Said It' by LaShun.  These girls could sing CIRCLES around the Clark Sisters....

BUT...

It concerns me that not only the Pace Sisters, but so many are eating the gobbly gook of Iyanla as if she were a bonafide prophetess who spoke at one of T.D. Jakes' WTAL conferences?

I can relate to the pain the Pace sisters are going through.  I, too, was molested as a girl by church leader(s). I, too, trusted and almost married a DL man who was HIV+.  I grew up in church as well.  Many called me 'anointed,' too.  I used to sing (I won't say NEARLY as good as any of these girls!  LOL); had a chance at recording and being in the gospel music industry.

Yall know my story...

But I'm not gonna get on TV and let some priestess 'minister' to me!  That's for sure!

According to http://iyanlavanzant.com/about/, Iyanla is 'one of America's most profound spiritual leaders and acclaimed empowerment legends.'

Why?  Because she is spiritual????

Everything or everyone spiritual is NOT saved, folks!  The problem with the church is they are seeking 'spiritual by-any-means-necessary folks.'  Meaning, they don't care if you're spiritual and the spirit you're carrying is from the devil...as long as you can 'make something happen in the spirit,' they are cool with you.

People...y'all need to be CAREFUL with that.  You can't go messing with all kinds of spirits that are NOT of God then wonder why all hell is breaking loose in your house!

When Leslie Pace say she felt offended by what Iyanla said to her, I was like, 'Well, yeah!  HELLO...that (spirit) in Iyanla was mocking YOUR GOD (that you say you have) in you!'  Religious spirits LOVE to mock!

These girls would have done better going seek counseling in the privacy of a LICENSED, QUALIFIED therapist to deal with their issues...than to come on this woman's show and air out all their dirty laundry....

The Pace Sisters have been through some stuff...we all know.  One sister came out as a lesbian a couple of years ago:

Member of Anointed Pace Sister Comes Out As Gay

This sister who came out a couple of years ago still has not been 'healed' of her issues.  She went on OWN a couple of years ago hoping that 'coming out' and appearing on OWN would help her.

Another sister testifies here of how she contracted STDs and HIV from (Im assuming) her husband:


And in an excerpt from "For My Good, But For His Glory," LaShun Pace shares her feelings about getting married to her first husband...and what happens immediately after...

"Now looking back over my life, I wished somebody would have thrown a sheet over my head, threw me in a car, and took off on a long ride to anywhere. As I was looking at wedding pictures, all the guys looked a little soft...They say that love is blind, but wanting to be free and grown so fast can also make you blind.

It was only 2 months after our marriage vows when my love answered the phone and on the other end was 'Dr. AIDS.' Then he said, 'Honey, the phone's for you. I said hello, and the doctor asked if my love had talked to me. I asked concerning what? He went on to say that they had that they had found the virus which causes AIDS in my love's body and that I needed to get to his office right away for testing. He finished telling me of the danger I was in; that the end results would be death, and having children would be no possibility.

He told me about the virus, I burst into tears, and the thought of us both dying was too much to bear. Questions were filling my head, all I could say was, 'Ive just gotten married! What is going on? This was back in 1986, I had heard of the alternative lifestyles of other people but I didn't know about the disease..."


All of this brings me to this ONE ALL-Important question:  

WHY IS IT THAT MORE AND MORE CHURCH FOLKS ARE SEEKING THE ASSISTANCE OF THE WORLD?  FOR ISSUES THEY PICKED UP.....IN CHURCH????????????

Now, I understand.  The church system has failed millions of people.  So once you keep going through the same thing (IN YOUR CHURCH) over and over again, you will automatically seek help outside of her (the harlot church) for relief.  I truly understand.

BUT you cannot, and I want to stress CANNOT, get help from the 'stuff' that you got in church from someone WHO IS NOT SAVED!!!!!!

Iyanla is NOT saved.  She does not even believe in God, even though she may talk OF God.  I mean, come on!  She is hanging buddies with Oprah!  Read up on the Yoruban religion.  

She is part of the spirit of Antichrist.  HOW can someone who doesn't believe in God EVER help you????

You've been hurt in church?  
Molested by church leaders?  
Turned out by the bishop?  
The apostle gave you AIDS?  

You do better just going to counseling.  If you need the name of a good one WHO IS SAVED, email me at goconnmca@gmail.com.  I will refer you to one!

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If you're struggling with your own sexuality, I want to share with you MY OWN PERSONAL STORY of deliverance and TRUE sexual healing.






"Down Low Deliverance: BE SET FREE!" is my own story of how sexual abuse in the church led to my own struggle with my sexuality...and how GOD set me free from sexual bondage and confusion.



And Ye Shall Receive...POWER?




This year, the feast that is known as Pentecost Sunday, celebrated 50 days after the Passover, was celebrated today.  In many congregations, many pastors preached on what is called 'the baptism of the Holy Ghost.'

We all know about the Day of Pentecost in Acts 2.

For centuries, we have been taught that the Holy Ghost-or rather, a sign that one has it-is if they speak in tongues.  This is where the phrase 'received the baptism of the Holy Ghost, evidenced by speaking in tongues' was initiated.

In Acts 1:8, Jesus Christ promises the disciples that they shall receive power after the Holy Ghost comes upon them, to become witnesses.

And we have taken that and ran with it.  We have led millions of people to believe that the Holy Ghost was the manifestation that took place on the Day of Pentecost, instead of teaching people the PURPOSE OF THE HOLY GHOST.

We got caught up in the power aspect of it all, that we have negated the TRUE power of the Holy Ghost by relegating it to a mere fleshly manifestation.  Or should I say manifestations.

This is how the enemy has been able to trick many into settling for the manifestations instead of holding out for the real thing...the FRUIT.

The greek word for power in Acts 1:8 is 'dynamis,' which means 'moral power and excellence of soul; potential to do what is right; inherent power, strength; the ability or enabling to do what could not be done before empowerment.'

We have heard pentecostals and charismatics call it 'dunamis' power, when that is not the correct spelling-or definition-of the actual greek word used here.  This was intentional-to get people focused on the signs and wonders aspect of power-the physical manifestations that tantalize and excite the flesh....and sway people away from focusing on the FRUIT.

We need to remember one thing;  the enemy has always wanted POWER.  And since power belongs to God, lucifer has to steal it, or fool the recipients of power out of their power.  The power the enemy wants to steal from people is NOT the power to raise the dead, or heal the sick, or to do miraculous signs and wonders.  He already got that.

The devil can perform miracles, fake deliverances, preach, prophesy, dance, speak in tongues...he has been practicing his magical bag of tricks to fool the religious and sign seekers for generations....it started when Moses was before Pharaoh and Pharaoh had his magicians mimic every sign God wrought through the hands of Moses.  The only way the enemy was exposed was when what God wrought devoured the lies and tricks of the enemy.

The way that the SPIRIT OF THE LIVING GOD devours the works of the enemy today is by exposing the enemy for who and what he really is.

The enemy wants YOUR power to do what is right!

Every time someone who claims salvation gives in to sin, the enemy has gained ground-or stolen-a little more of  the power GOD gave to you.

'Ye shall receive power...'

Many are going to preach this today.  Many are gonna get hands laid on them at altars today.  Many are going to speak in tongues today.  Many are going to go through fake deliverance today.  A lot of dancing and shouting will go forth, and many will conclude it was all God.

And this whole fiasco that is going on today in many churches will grieve the Holy Ghost...

But watch these same people next week....and we will see if they indeed received 'power.'

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Excerpt from 
'Grieving the Holy Ghost'
By Pam Sheppard

The Holy Ghost has been reduced to what charismatics, Pentecostals and word of faith-ers call "the anointing."

To most of this crowd, the Holy Ghost is "an it" that causes them to have goosebumps as they fall out slain in the spirit, speak in a language that no one can understand, and "get drunk in the spirit." However, He is so much more than that.
DO NOT GRIEVE THE HOLY GHOST!
As a Person and not "a feeling," the Holy Ghost speaks, teaches, witnesses, guides, comforts, convicts, commands, helps, converts, imparts faith to believe, brings the fear of the Lord and imparts godly sorrow to help a sinner repent. He can be obeyed, lied to, resisted, grieved, quenched, quenched, insulted and blasphemed.  The work of the Holy Spirit on earth is similar to that of the Lord's earthly ministry. As Jesus lived to lift up and glorify the Father, the Holy Spirit's work centers on lifting up the Son of God, Jesus Christ of Nazareth.  The Father also glorifies the Son.  The Holy Ghost is the Spirit of Christ and the Spirit of the Father.  All three Persons are One.  As our Teacher of spiritual truths, the Holy Spirit will enlighten your mind with insights into the mind of Christ as He unlocks the spiritual doorways to the secret things of God.

Just as the Holy Ghost drove Jesus into the wilderness to do battle with the devil, He does the same with the elect of God.  The Holy Ghost not only wants you to know the godhead.  He wants you to know your enemy and so He will arrange your wilderness experience, tailor-made to what you need to find out.  He knows that it is crucial that you be not ignorant to demonic deception, for the demons have access to our very souls.

Therefore, it is imperative that we learn how to tell the difference between what is spiritual, what is demonic and what is soulish or carnal.  The Holy Ghost is the Helper and as such, He provides us with self-knowledge as long as we don't grieve Him. Self knowledge equips us to be able to discern thoughts and feelings that are alien to our character and personality. Demons love to snare their prey with half-truths rather than with complete lies because a half truth can set a more believable trap.

You say to yourself, if this is true, then THAT must be true, and then you are trapped.  This is the scheme that is the foundation of all false religions.  There is at least ONE truth about God in all of them, perhaps more.

Nevertheless, 99% of truth is no truth at all.   It is a lie.  The Holy Ghost is 100 percent truth and there are no lies in Him. 99% of truth is a setup from the devil. Since our human struggle with the evil side of the spirit world is a daily event, and since Jesus revealed that the Holy Ghost is 100 percent truth, we need to resist grieving Him.  For Jesus said that the Holy Ghost will reveal truth as to what is to come.  In the times in which we live, we are helpless without the Holy Ghost.

How do we grieve the Holy Ghost? Well, when we actually believe that WE lead people to Jesus Christ, we grieve the Holy Ghost.

All we do is preach and testify, as led by the Holy Ghost to do so.  The Holy Ghost does the rest.  He knows who will be saved from who will be damned.  He is the one who dispatches angels to set up our wilderness experiences that He will use to draw us to the cross.   He is the one who provides faith to believe on the Son of God and His bodily resurrection.  You might call the Holy Ghost "THE MINISTER OF SALVATION." So He is certainly grieved when we take the credit for our own salvation when we boast "I ACCEPTED Jesus."  He is more than grieved with this. He is angry.  Perhaps that is why religious demons have been allowed to enter those who have said "Jesus, come into my heart."
  • When He is grieved, He is also quenched. A fire is quenched when dirt is thrown on it.  The organized church has thrown lots of dirt on the Holy Ghost and perhaps that is why He left Her.
  • The Holy Ghost  is also grieved when He is reduced to a flesh experience.  He is a Spirit.  We must worship God in spirit and in truth and not by a sensation on our flesh.  The Holy Ghost imparts the truth by which we worship God Almighty.
  • The Holy Ghost is grieved when professing Christians bypass the Son of God and seek the Father to be saved.  He is quite grieved with that.
  • The Holy Ghost is grieved by those who do not try the spirits to see if they be of Him.  He will let you be deceived until you do.
Resurrection life---the same power the Holy Ghost used to raise the Lord from the dead---will be evident when you experience revelation, power, and discernment under the guidance and instruction of the Holy Ghost.  Revelation is to receive God's own personal  knowledge and wisdom about YOUR life.  Power is His supernatural ability applied to YOUR human frailty.  We cannot do without  the resurrection life of the Holy Ghost in times like these.
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So to conclude, I can safely say the the SPIRIT OF THE LIVING GOD is tired of people celebrating Pentecost Sunday.

How can I say that?

Isaiah 1:13-15

Bring no more vain oblations; incense is an abomination unto me; the new moons and sabbaths, the calling of assemblies, I cannot away with; it is iniquity, even the solemn meeting.

Your new moons and your appointed feasts my soul hateth: they are a trouble unto me; I am weary to bear them.

And when ye spread forth your hands, I will hide mine eyes from you: yea, when ye make many prayers, I will not hear: your hands are full of blood.

God is no longer impressed by people who have solemn assemblies, saying they are worshiping Him, when their hearts are far from Him.

Look what He says in verse 16...

Wash you, make you clean; put away the evil of your doings from before mine eyes; cease to do evil;

THIS is what the POWER of the Holy Ghost is supposed to do!

Give us power to be cleansed, to put away evil, to cease to do evil.

If what you are getting at your altars is not empowering you to do this, giving you wisdom...then you have no real power at all.

So my question remains...have you REALLY received POWER?
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Want to know more about the enemy has LIED to you about the HOLY GHOST?  How that the Holy Ghost was what was poured out at the 1906 Azusa Street Revival...How THAT is a LIE?

You shall know a tree by the fruit it bears!   I write all about it in:

                                                                                 The Fruits Of Azusa


The 'power' you thought you got from this revival was power from 'on low.'  NOT from God.  You need to read it for yourself and find out!  Just click on this link to get your copy TODAY!


Tuesday, May 14, 2013

Facebook Wars: The Art of Agreeing (or Disagreeing)



'How can two walk together except they agree?'  Amos 3:3

We all have heard this scripture used in sermons and teachings before.  

I have watched certain groups, fellowships and the such in my 20 + years of being saved, and I have found something to be VERY true.

Birds of a feather DO flock together.

Like people will be drawn to one another.  Good or bad.  

In AND outside of church, human behavior almost dictates that people who are alike tend to flock together. Flocking is a tendency that humans and sheep share.  

To flock:  1.  A group of animals that live, travel, or feed together.  2. A group of people under the leadership of one person, especially the members of a church.  3. A large crowd or number

I studied sheep...and I found it interesting that sheep not only flock together, but they will follow a leader together...even if that leader, say, leads them straight into a lake or river...to drown to their death.

Sheep blindly and wholeheartedly follow a leader-known as a shepherd-wherever they go.  Even if the 'leader' starts out on a right path, but gets off track and goes another way.

"...Sheep are flock animals and strongly gregarious; much sheep behavior can be understood on the basis of these tendencies. The dominance hierarchy of sheep and their natural inclination to follow a leader to new pastures were the pivotal factors in sheep being one of the first domesticated livestock species.  Furthermore, in contrast to the red deer and gazelle (two other ungulates of primary importance to meat production in prehistoric times), sheep do not defend territories although they do form home ranges All sheep have a tendency to congregate close to other members of a flock, although this behavior varies with breed and sheep can become stressed when separated from their flock members.  During flocking, sheep have a strong tendency to follow and a leader may simply be the first individual to move. Relationships in flocks tend to be closest among related sheep: in mixed-breed flocks, subgroups of the same breed tend to form, and a ewe and her direct descendants often move as a unit within large flocks..." from Wikipedia 

I think I quoted this before in my post about pastors....

But anyway, its good information...

This may seem like a great quality to have...and the Word even speaks of sheep...and goats.  Sheep are supposed to be good; goats are supposed to be bad.  But this is from the viewpoint of the leader...the sheep or the goats' 'teachability' supposedly determines their goodness, their loyalty, their faithfulness, and, some leaders will even go as far as to say you're not saved if you don't do EVERYTHING they want you to do.

I was once under a leader like this, in the oneness movement.  I was 9 months pregnant with my daughter, full of fluid, and I refused to sell pecan candy for the church (the pastor).  My feet were swollen up like tree stumps and I just couldn't see myself going out in the 90 degree weather in front of Walmart to sell some pecan candy!  

So the pastor call himself 'cursing me' from the pulpit, kicked me out the church and told me I was not saved!

LOL!

It wasn't funny then, though.  

For someone who was HEAVILY under the influence of religion, I had to walk 3 miles home in extremely hot weather...with tree stump ankles.  Crying and balling my eyes out because I believed this preacher who told me I wasn't saved!  Why?  Because I didn't sell some pecan candy in front of Walmart!!!

I can laugh at it now....and I don't want to stay on this too long.  But I shared this to show you all how much power and control these leaders can abuse when you GIVE IT TO THEM.

But I want to talk about WHY do people have a hard time with other people disagreeing with them????

How come in religious (or religious like settings) is disagreement automatically seen as betrayal?  The one who disagrees with how a leader interprets things, or teaches things, or maybe how they run things...if someone has the guts to say anything, or just decides to leave because they KNOW the leader does not handle confrontation well, the person is then deemed an enemy?

THIS kind of flock behavior is EXACTLY why there are so many denominations, churches, fellowships and the such.  

I like the term 'agree to disagree.'  

It absolves either party from feeling like the other is the enemy ... just because the two disagree.

I will also say this...it is ok to be sheep...but the Word of God says to be HARMLESS as doves, but WISE as serpents!  Jesus Christ says he sends us out as SHEEP....AMONG WOLVES.

Do you know what that means?

Yes, it is good to be sheep.  But not so you can be UNWISE...or NOT BE AWARE of the wolves that are circling around you - and their agenda. 

Serpents have a STRONG sensitivity to what's going on around them - a 'type' of discernment.  Their bellies that they crawl around upon is the most sensitive parts of their bodies.  They can literally feel when something is coming their way.  When you see a snake hiss, they are not hissing to cause you harm.  Their forked tongues have sensors on the tip that can sense change of motion in the air.  Just by sticking out their forked tongues, snakes can tell if someone is approaching.

And when a snake attacks, it is not just to catch prey, but it is a form of protection.  

Snakes can be killed as well.  So because they have no feet and legs to run from danger, because they have to slither on the ground, even though they do it really fast...their first mode of defense is to attack.  

There is a REASON why God tells us to be WISE as serpents.

God wants us to be AWARE, HYPER-AWARE, as a matter of fact, to what is REALLY going on around us.  

God knew that there would be wolves - hirelings - that would attempt to lead the sheep.  And that the very nature of sheep is to be led.  And if sheep do not OPERATE IN WISDOM/DEFENSE MODE, they stand a great chance to be led astray!

God is calling us to be WISE SHEEP THAT ARE AWARE of what is REALLY going on.

JESUS CHRIST is called the GREAT SHEPHERD of the SHEEP.

I suggest you SEEK THE TRUE SHEPHERD and not man...

Man always ends up becoming wolves....

There IS an art to disagreeing, and most have not realized it.  Or practiced it.

This is why it is WISE to just part ways, let things be what they are.  If two or more parties disagree on a thing, then they should agree to amicably part ways and move on with their lives.

I titles this Facebook Wars because it seems that many in this arena simply do not know how to 'agree to disagree.'  Everybody's trying to be right.  Set folks straight.  Defend the faith....We don't have to defend ANYTHING.  Jesus Christ PAID it all on Calvary!

Folks on Facebook need to learn to let dead dogs lie.  Agree to disagree.  Stop calling folks enemies just because they didn't agree WITH YOU.

DO KNOW....JUST BECAUSE SOMEONE DISAGREES WITH YOU DOES NOT MAKE THEM AN ENEMY!

And every disagreement is NOT meant for debate or discussion.  Just let it be.  You walk your way.  And the other party walks their way....

So let's put away the bats and the knives....let's 'study war no more.'  

It's really not that serious.  Really.

How can two walk together...except they AGREE?  





Thursday, May 09, 2013

LeAndria Johnson To Open Church in Georgia




Ok, there is a buzz going on in the church arena that Sunday Best Winner LeAndria Johnson is starting her own church next month in Georgia, according to LeAndria's Facebook page.

For those of you who do not know LeAndria, she is a popular, very talented gospel artist contestant winner on BET'S 'Sunday's Best' series that every seasons airs a 9 month long talent show of gospel artists who want to make it big.  (Just picture 'American Idol' in a church setting)

A panel of judges (including Donnie McClurkin, Yolanda Adams and Cece Winans-that is always subject to change) plus a cheering audience get to choose 'la creme de la creme' of gospel artists who parade around across the stage and duke it out for who is 'Sunday's Best,' who is the best singer of that season.

LeAndria won SB in 2010 and life has been a roller coaster for her ever since.  

She had the church world in an uproar after she gave birth to her son last year...and was not married.  Many people who cheered her on in SB and all her corresponding church events in which she performed after SB were ready to stone her for not being a godly example of a virtuous woman. 

I never had a problem, per se, with her giving birth out of wedlock.  I have been saying from GO that LeAndria is on a train ride that will end up being a wreck.  NOT because of her not being a talented performer and songstress, an entertainer, or not even questioning her salvation.  






Just by virtue of the fact that she is within the church system...THIS is what is going to hurt her in the long run...

I said from her win on SB that LeAndria was being exploited by church people.  Church is well known for exploiting people for their sin or issues, and not being able to do a thing about them.

The FB post states she was preaching and teaching 'revivals' long before SB...as to somehow add 'credibility to 'the call to ministry.'

What most-if not all-church folks fail to realize is that God is NOT opening up these churches.  THIS is why the pastors have to become more and more 'appealing' to the five senses in order to 'gain a crowd.'

First, Kim Burrell opened a church in 2011...another popular, awesome singer in the gospel music industry.  LeAndria and Kim are two sisters I actually applaud for their incredible vocal skills and talent.

But I can wholeheartedly attest to the fact that God has not called either woman to the ministry.

God has called them OUT of the church.

BUT because of their love affair with the general public, their need for public approval, their own personal ambition, and maybe a hint of pride, these two sisters will undoubtedly continue on with their ministerial ventures...in efforts to 'minister' to those the average church world has failed to reach.

And while that is an admirable cause and reason (to 'start a church'-smh...you cannot 'start' a church, btw-WE ARE THE CHURCH), the best 'ministry' to the people who won't go to church won't be found inside the four walls of any church.

NO matter HOW talented....or how 'anointed.'  Or how beautiful.  Or how smart.

ONLY THE HOLY GHOST can teach people...and minister to people.

Most of the churches that are being opened today are NOT 'opened' by God.  Period.

All that these people are doing is perpetuating more error, spreading more false doctrine and causing more harm than good.

NOT because of anyone's sordid past, or their imperfections (God can use anyone...WHO IS SAVED.  It's not a question of what their financial status was, or if they were homeless or not, or what family they come from...) or because of their being a man or a woman (there is neither male nor female in the Kingdom of God), or because they are a part of the wrong denomination (WHO came up with denominations?) or ANYTHING like that.

The reason why folks need to STOP opening up churches is because......

THE CHURCH AGE IS OVER.  

God is NOT telling you to start a church.  

STOP OPENING UP CHURCHES!

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