Monday, October 21, 2013

"After I'm Done With You-You Lesbian-You'll Never Want Another Woman AGAIN!"



The above picture is a brutal scene from the movie 'The Women of Brewster's Place,' which starred heavyweights such as Oprah Winfrey, Lynn Whitfield, Jackee Harry and Phyllis Stickney back in 1988.

The above character, Lorraine (Lonette McKee), is a lesbian in an impoverished community in New York who lives with her live-in lesbian lover, Theresa (played by Paula Kelly).  They are often discriminated against in the tight-knit community and rejected, but they forge on in their relationship.

Then one day, local drug dealer C.C. (played by Glenn Plummer) catches Lorraine alone, threatens her by knifepoint, drags her into a dark alley and beats and rapes her exclaiming:

"After I'm Done With You, You'll Never Want Another Woman AGAIN!"






I have seen this movie at least twice in the past.  But it was when it first came out...way before I had my own experience with same sex attraction later on in my twenties...

This was a very hard scene for me to watch, and it brought tears to my eyes.

(For those of you who don't know my story, you can read about it in my eBook 'Down Low Deliverance: BE SET FREE!')

I could definitely relate to this...in my eBook, I go into detail of the sexual abuse I suffered at the hands of a relative and the abusive relationships that followed afterwards.  

A lot of people really don't understand the dynamics behind homosexuality, lesbianism, bisexuality and so on.  
There are a LOT of men out there that believe if they can 'turn a woman out,' that she will somehow 'turn straight' by one sexual encounter with them.

And in C.C.'s case, he believed that he could violently, forcibly convert this woman.  Smh.

If you have seen the whole movie, all the rape did was drive Lorraine further into the hands of her lesbian lover.

Many who seek to help the lesbian or homosexual really believe that they can somehow change them by all these outward calisthenics, be it religious, violent or otherwise.

When I decided I would 'come out' and started attending lesbian support groups, I consistently ran into women who shared horrid experiences of sexual abuse as children and young women.  Of horribly abusive relationships with their teen boyfriends, or being cheated on.  

After many a candid and open discussions amongst ourselves in these support groups, it was concluded that most of the women who turned to the lesbian or bisexual lifestyle did so out of CHOICE.  The attraction to women did NOT begin until AFTER the incidences of abuse, or infidelity.  

These women decided they had had enough of the men using and abusing them.  Some as girls were raped by other women.  Some as preteens and teens were introduced to sexual experiences with the same sex - what many call 'sexual experimentation' - and through a SERIES of events, as well as the confusion of trying to figure out if they were gay or lesbian or not, having these desires towards the same sex and not knowing how to RESIST THEM, many grew up eventually believing that they were 'created this way.'

There is something very powerful about sex.  

When you have sex with someone, you become one with that person.  And anything introduced during a sexual encounter can literally become a part of your soul.  Your spirit.  

If the sex is with someone of the same sex, there is a trust that is released with women, in particular, that makes it extremely difficult for her to differentiate between right and wrong.  There is a literal hormone that is released when a woman has an orgasm called 'oxytocin' (it can be released to some degree in men upon ejaculation, too.  Which is why when men have sex with men, that bond can be hard to break as well).

When oxytocin is released, it really does act like a 'love potion,' of sorts.  

When Michelle Obama and others say things like 'you can't help who you love,' in a sense, it is true.

That is, when you involve sex...

And if that sex is NOT within the godly confines of ONE man and ONE woman who are married, when you take that and pervert it in any way, there are bound to be casualties.

When two people of the same sex come together and release oxytocin, that bond can seem intricately IMPOSSIBLE to break.  Because it is with a person who knows what you have, how you tick, how it feels to be a man, a woman, wired the same way....couple that with mind-boggling, explosive sexual experiences, and it can really seem to the two involved that they really CAN'T help who they 'love.'

PLUS, you add to the equation the probable dysfunction that the both of them probably suffered in earlier or childhood years...that draws them together, too.

The enemy uses all of this to bring about what we call the alternative lifestyle.  And dupe millions of people into believing they are actually in love with the same sex.

And when people who simply DO NOT understand those dynamics come in with a wrecking ball and call them names from the pulpit like 'faggots' and 'bull-dykes,' or brutally rape them, or try to 'turn them out,' or bring them to polluted church altars where the very preachers who are laying hands on them are gay, bi or on the down low THEMSELVES...

Its NO WONDER most who are still in this lifestyle mock, laugh at and shun church.  

Some will go, because they enjoy the spotlight and the attention that church gives them.  But most will not...unless, of course, is someone who is gay or lesbian decides to open a 'gay-friendly' or 'lesbian-friendly' church where they would feel comfortable to 'worship God.' (See my article, 'First Gentlemen, First Lady and Other Foolishness In The Church')

In the meantime, while everyone's experimenting with this population of people, going to either extremes on how to deal with gays and lesbians - either being eerily silent on the issue or publicly applauding behavior and attractions that we all know is not normal or healthy.  

(TRUST ME.  I've known more gays and lesbians personally than most people.  I've sat in support groups with them.  Seen them cry as they share their abuse stories.  NOTHING about the homosexual or lesbian lifestyle is NORMAL or EMOTIONALLY, SPIRITUALLY or MENTALLY healthy...NOT TO MENTION PHYSICALLY!)

So while this speculation is being done, millions still suffer in torment to their desires....

Knowing deep down inside...it just AIN'T RIGHT!  But feeling entrapped and imprisoned to them.

Couple that with a hostile religious environment and no real answers to their torment, is it any wonder so many in the lifestyle CHOOSE to STAY in the lifestyle?????

WHERE WILL THEY FIND RELIEF?  HELP?  REAL LOVE?  DELIVERANCE?????

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Well, I can say I have found it!!!!!

IN GOD ALONE!!!!

If you are trapped in a whirlwind of desires that you KNOW are wrong, but are somehow driven to fulfill them, GOD IS THERE TO HELP.

I'm NOT talking about going to church...or coughing up some demons...
I'm NOT talking about going to therapists that don't understand your plight...
I'm NOT talking about anything you probably EVER heard about before!

I found help simply by going to God for MYSELF.  He allowed someone who had the same struggles I did to share how HE got free.  And THAT STORY helped me DECIDE...'HEY!  I CAN BE FREE, TOO!'

I share that story in my eBook, "Down Low Deliverance: Be SET FREE!"


Nothing spooky or magical here.  Just an honest story of a church girl who had been abused but who is now SET FREE by the LOVE, TRUTH and POWER of GOD!



Sunday, October 20, 2013

The Disability Hustle


When we see someone who is disabled, we usually see someone who is outwardly disabled.  They may be on crutches or in a wheelchair...or walk on a cane.  Or maybe they wear some sort of other outward apparatus that denotes they are physically disabled.

We have broadened our understanding of disability to include all mental or emotional, perhaps physiological disorders, and also recovery from various ailments, diseases or addictions of some kind.

There was a time when the disabled were grossly abused and neglected.  Then the ADA (American Disabilities Act) came on the scene and changed everything.  Enacted in 1990, it is a fairly new law -- only 14 years old -- that protects the rights of the disabled.  It also was set in place to ensure that disabled people would have equal access to transportation, buildings, accommodations for telecommunications, job and educational opportunities, etc.

(Hang in there:  there is a reason why I'm giving the little history lesson!)
What is known as Social Security disability benefits was started by President Franklin D. Roosevelt in 1935 under the Social Security Act during the Great Depression as a form of 'social insurance.'  It was to serve as supplemental income for elderly individuals only - who were at an obvious disadvantage to care for themselves.  

In 1956, President Dwight Eisenhower amended the SSA to include giving social security benefits to the disabled.  It was originally for WORKERS between the ages of 50-65 who were deemed somehow disabled. (I want you to catch that....elderly people between the ages of 50-65 WHO HELD A JOB were the only ones who initially qualified for disability benefits!)

It was later amended over the years to include disabled people of all ages and mental disorders and recovering addicts.

NOW.....

With THAT being said, I want you all to think about the 'disabled' folks that YOU know. The ones who get a disability check every month.  I don't care WHO they are, how much you like or love them.  

We ALL know someone who get a 'check' EVERY month, and even if you have NEVER asked them outright 'HOW ARE YOU GETTING A CHECK?  YOU AREN'T DISABLED?'  You have surely thought it!

BE HONEST!

The disabled folks - the ones who get a check - that I know -for the most part - are not truly disabled.  

They milk the system for a substantial amount of money.  They 'act' crazy, or get the doctor to make up an illness or something wrong with them.  They have learned to milk the system.  

And they are living LARGE off the hard work of the people in this country who DO clock in to work everyday and pay taxes.  Who do have to work two and three jobs just to make ends meet.  

(I still don't get how a drug addict who CHOSE to put the needle in their arms can qualify for a check anyways!)

I have to say:  most disabled (not all) folks are some of the most DECEPTIVE, MANIPULATIVE, SNEAKY, NARCISSISTIC, BITTER, SELF-DESTRUCTIVE, WHINY people I know!

I know what you're saying...

"Wenona!  How can  you say such a thing?  They are disabled!  They didn't ask to be disabled; it just happened to them..."

Let me tell you something...

Most of what the SSA has deemed a disability today are disabilities that - for the most part - disorders and ailments that recipients could have PREVENTED.

And mental disabilities?  Those aren't forever.  Just because you may have a mental disability at one point in your life does not deem you unable to work forever!

I look at kids with Down's Syndrome who got jobs and are some of the hardest workers, the happiest ones on the job...I look at people with one leg run a race in the Special Olympics...and win!....I look at blind people who work in tech support from home....

And I KNOW that a disability is NOT the end of the world!!!!!!

The problem with many in this country is we hear a sob story and we immediately wanna throw money and a check at the issue instead of dealing with THE REAL ISSUES.

If you TELL a disabled person that they cannot do something because they are disabled, sooner or later that message will sink in and they will start to actually believe that they can't!

And some folks on disability are just plain evil.  YES, I SAID IT!

They see a way out, and will opt for the easy route ANYDAY.  

And they will use WHOMEVER will allow them to use them to get what they want.  That includes family, friends, church people, the government...

It's really disgusting!

I know so-called disabled folks who pastor churches -and collect tithes and offerings!  I know some who collect a check who are living large, they've been able to go on vacations with their disability checks, they deal drugs, they pimp...the whole nine!

I call it "THE DISABILITY HUSTLE!"

I'm not at all against someone who is really disabled to go get help.  All I'm saying is it is DEAD wrong to keep using people, to keep playing 'the victim and cray cray' just because you're too lazy or too scared to go and GET A JOB and take care of yourself.

Let me share something about myself...when I was 5 years old, my Kindergarten teacher said I would have to be in special educational classes for the rest of my life.  When I was born, I was so premature that the doctors said I would be disabled.

My dad, a teacher - a special education teacher - did not allow what doctors and teachers said about me to pre-determine how he would treat me.  

He treated me like a normal kid.  I went to normal classes.  Not ONE time did my dad allow them to label me.  He didn't go looking for a reason to go and collect a check for me.

I ended up graduating in the Top Ten percent of my graduation class in High School.  AND I won a FULL TUITION SCHOLARSHIP to college!

I work from home and I am an author.  I have raised kids pretty much on my own and now am a grandma.  

I am a functional, tax paying, employed woman.  YES, I could have went and got a 'crazy check.'  But I didn't!

I have been sick at times.  Hospitalized.  I could have signed up for disability many a day....but I didn't.

Why?

Because I KNEW that I could do it.

I could take care of myself...and my kids, too!

You see, something happens to disability check recipients when they become dependent on the system or on others to take care of them...they actually become 'disabled' from being able to BELIEVE that they TRULY CAN TAKE CARE OF THEMSELVES!

It becomes a mind thing.  

And that is why folks on disability can be hustlers and run game on folks and use folks...they feel like they can and that they are entitled.  They are angry that whatever happened to them to disable them happened, and so now the entire world around them has to pay for it.

And the loved ones who keep acqueiscing and enabling the disabled folks around them...all they are doing is DISABLING them from making QUALITY decisions in their lives.  For taking responsibility for their own lives.  For allowing them to become responsible, productive members of society.

I dare you to CUT THE APRON STRINGS to any disabled person you know.  You know deep down inside that they've been using you, manipulating you, conning you, deceiving you for YEARS.  

But because you love them, you keep allowing them to do it.  

It is the ultimate act of love and very empowering if you would just CUT THE APRON STRINGS now.  

Make them have to do it for themselves!  Make them responsible for their own lives.  

Stop enabling them.  Stop lying for them, covering for them, giving them your money.  

IF they are on disability, challenge them.  Challenge them to make opportunities for themselves to take care of themselves!  There is no shame in being on disability.  

The shame is on STAYING on disability...and doing the DISABILITY HUSTLE!


Thursday, October 10, 2013

Preach Me, Sing Me Happy, Ni _ _ _!


When I first got saved, I was going to an all white church congregation...and I was the only black person in the church.  This did not bother me, because I was the only black person in a lot of things coming up...in school, in particular.  

I was a nerd, so I didn't study with many black kids...because most black kids from New Orleans didn't want to be 'nerds,' per se, so they didn't let on they were smart.  Instead they tried to push that thug/gangster/I'm hood persona for their classmates...even the GIRLS!

I was always a loner, so being different didn't bother me.  I never got into cliques and clubs and the such.  Just school, church and home.  

Church was all black, by default, since my it was my dad's uncles' church....

But I became culturally sensitive, if you will, in school.

So it didn't bother me when I started going to church and I was the only black person, when David Duke was running for governor of Louisiana in the 1980s and 1990s.  I was admittedly a little scared...but I pressed on anyhow!
Because I just KNEW I was in the will of God!
So because I was wet behind the ears, and was searching for a real encounter with God and the black church had failed me in that area...so I went on my search to the other side ...to .....

THE WHITE CHURCH!

I think if every black believer is honest with themselves, we have all gotten a little tired of the shenanigans that we saw go on in the black church...so we went on our search for 'the perfect church.'

We know that the white church has their 'strong ' points...those of us who went on our search for 'the' church.

White people seemed so genuine with their worship.  It wasn't all for show or a talent show or a competition of who can outpreach or outsing who.  

That got real old in 'our' churches...

So we thought, 'The grass will definitely be greener on the other side...'

NOT!

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I used to go to an all white congregation...

And I found that white churches had their 'issues,' too.

True, they don't have the same issues that black churches do...but TRUST...they gots their issues, too!

Its gonna sound racist what I'm about to post, but I have to tell the truth.

White congregants are looking for black folks to entertain them....preach them happy, sing them happy, show me how to shout happy, to relieve them from all the very real pressures they got going on right now...


I used to go to a church where leadership was predominantly white...and they held a conference...it was called the 'Black Evangelism Conference.'  

It sounded innocent enough, right?  

I mean, after all, here was this holier than thou church/denomination who was realizing that there was actually black folks on the outskirts of their perimeters...and was making attempts to reach out to them....

But the only problem I began to see with that is the very fact they had to 'make attempts' to begin with....

You see, the problem with what passes for evangelism is that people who do evangelism have the wrong focus.  

They focus on what THEY believe will appeal to the 'market' they are trying to evangelize, instead of trusting that the Holy Ghost can reach beyond ALL racial and economic barriers and SAVE the Lost.

Not our clever, manipulative efforts at getting folks to 'come to church.'

The worse thing you can do is make folks come to your church!

And what I found is that most (white) congregants seek out black preachers and singers to their churches in efforts to draw more black people to their churches, all in efforts to prove to the world that they are culturally diverse, an example of the church in the Book of Acts....of all different races and ethnicities.

I want to divert your attention back to church history...the fact of the matter is that racism began in the institutional church.  Separatism in the church has always been a reality ... and the whole division that took place after Azusa Street was all racially motivated.

Plainly put...white folks could not (or would not) have church with black folks - we all know about Jim Crow laws...and we all know the story of William Seymour - the alleged 'Father of Pentecostalism' - how he was locked out of the class/bible study when mentor Charles Parham was trying to learn about the coveted 'Baptism of the Holy Ghost.'

(I write about that and a WHOLE lot more in my eBook, The Fruits of Azusa),


The whole problem with this is the problem with the organized church system as a whole:  the very fact that it is INSTITUTIONALIZED.  

ANYTHING that is INSTITUTIONALIZED can be MANIPULATED and CONTROLLED.

And when you got that ol' plantational structure going in the church - white man in charge, black man doing all the work - there are BOUND to be some racial discrimination going on.

It is often said that Sunday morning is the most segregated hour of the week...that is not something of OUR doing.  That was started with Jim Crow laws.  With slavery.  With the institutionalization of religion.

With Charles Parham locking William Seymour out the prayer meeting...

The entire Azusa movement began, was birthed in division...is it any wonder to THIS DAY, the tens of 1000s of churches birthed out of Azusa are seeped in it?

Oh no, my writing about it, bringing attention to it, is NOT racist.  It is factual.  I did my research.  I studied church history.  And my history.  

I'm just bold enough to write on it....you know, the stuff y'all shout and preach over every week in church!

Yes, there is trouble on the horizon in the so-called 'white church' as well.  

And they will hire any black person who is willing to entertain them, to make them feel like they are 'having church.'  

They will allow a black man to preach or a black woman to sing them happy, to sing them out of the misery that  has been handed down to them from their forefathers....

All because they won't repent.

Yes, even though YOU didn't own slaves, YOU didn't kill our men and rape our women, YOU didn't lock folks out your churches, YOU didn't discriminate against blacks in leadership on ANY level, YOU didn't oppress generations of black people for your own economic and political empowerment...

Your forefathers did!

And God is calling for repentance for the sins of the fathers....

And repentance is NOT just holding Black Evangelism conferences, or allowing black folks to come to your churches to entertain you.  

Repentance is not just you electing a black man into office or placating millions of people with substandard social service programs that strangle more than they empower....

NO.

Repentance is being sorry for what was done, AND vowing to change mindsets, behaviors, prejudices, secret thoughts, fears, etc. that you STILL hold on to...

And the reason why I know you do is because of what you ALLOW to happen...

In your churches.  In Washington, D.C.  In your courtrooms.  On the police force.  In City Hall.

The day of the Ni_ _ _ _ singing and dancing you happy are LONG over.  

It's REPENTANCE TIME!

FOR REAL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!




Monday, September 23, 2013

WHERE Did the Marriage Vows Come From Anyways?


In this journey of detoxing from church, I often challenge myself to openly examine any and all religious teachings and practices that are in place within the institution of church.  

Let me just say upfront that I do so NOT because I don't believe in God, or I don't believe in marriage.  I do so out of a very reverential and devoted love for God and the highest respect for marriage.

Last night, I was posting on relationships and marriage and before I went to bed the question popped up in my mind, 'WHERE DID THE MARRIAGE VOWS COME FROM ANYWAYS?'

We've all been to weddings:  most of them have sort of the same 'template' or 'format,' if you will.  The priest or preacher recites a scripture, maybe two.  Most people -including the bride and groom themselves - are not really paying attention to them as they ramble on.  They are mostly looking forward to the preacher getting to them repeating the vows.

It goes a little something like this:

"...I, ____, take you, ____, to be my (husband/wife). I promise to be true to you in good times and in bad, in sickness and in health. I will love you and honor you all the days of my life."

"I, ____, take you, ____, to be my lawfully wedded(husband/wife), to have and to hold, from this day forward, for better, for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and in health, until death do us part."


And then the priest/preacher says:

"The priest will then say aloud "You have declared your consent before the Church. May the Lord in his goodness strengthen your consent and fill you both with his blessings. What God has joined, men must not divide. Amen."

Some preachers recite scriptures beforehand that says that the husband should love his wife as Christ love the church...again, I want to reiterate, most people simply do not be listening to the preachers go through their spill.

The only part of the actual vows themselves that are based in scripture is the part that the preacher tells the WIFE to recite where she is made to promise that she will obey her husband!

Now, I used to work for a lawyer.  In a law school.  As a matter of fact, TWO law schools.  Boston College and SUNO (Southern University at New Orleans).  So I know a thing or two about law.

When you take vows in a legal ceremony, they are legally binding.  It's called a legally verbal agreement.  All you really need is one for it to be binding...that is where the witness in smaller, civil ceremonies come into play.

But I want to back up a bit and ask the VERY NEEDED QUESTION:  WHO CAME UP WITH THE PRACTICE OF WEDDING CEREMONIES????

According to Wikipedia, 'In the time of the Roman Empire (17 B.C.- A.D. 476) the lower classes (proletarians) had "free" marriages. The bride's father would deliver her to the groom, and the two agreed that they were wed, and would keep the vow of marriage by mutual consent. Wealthy Romans, though, would sign documents listing property rights to publicly declare that their union was legalized and not a common law marriage. This was the beginning of the official recording of marriage.

The oldest traditional wedding vows can be traced back to the manuals of the medieval church. In England, there were manuals of the dioceses of Salisbury (Sarum) and York. The compilers of the first Book of Common Prayer, published in 1549 based its marriage service mainly on the Sarum manual. Upon agreement to marry, the Church of England usually offered couples a choice. The couple could promise each other to "love and cherish" or alternatively, the groom promises to "love, cherish and worship", while the bride to "love, cherish and obey."  
[http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Marriage_vows]

Now I find this very interesting.  That the very institution that - as far as I'm concerned - polluted the Church that GOD built - THE ROMAN CATHOLIC CHURCH - started this practice.

Most marriage ceremonies, according to the Wikipedia article are variations of the Catholic wedding ceremony that the pope(s) and the Diocese started.  This is very important to remember.

While I believe in marriage, I have no choice but to question the validity of 'wedding ceremonies' of ANY kind, ESPECIALLY THOSE PERFORMED BY A PRIEST, A PREACHER...EVEN A JUDGE.

Now, I know.  Someone is gonna say, 'But Wenona.  How will the marriage be 'official' in the eyes of man if it's not officiated by a priest, preacher or some other legal party?'

WHO came up with the 'idea' to make marriage a legal matter anyways?  WHO started the whole practice of filing papers with the government to make marriages 'official' anyways?

THE CATHOLIC CHURCH!!!!!!

ANY TEACHING OR RELIGIOUS PRACTICE INSTITUTED BY THE ROMAN CATHOLIC CHURCH I HAVE VERY GOOD REASON TO DOUBT, QUESTION AND SHUN.

-Why aren't the wedding vows not totally steeped in SCRIPTURE?
-Why aren't men made to vow before man and God that they WILL love their wives as Christ love the
  church?  Make them SAY IT.  Not just hear the preacher say it...
-Why is it that the only part of the vows that have scriptural basis is where the woman is supposed to 'obey'
  her husband?  (based loosely on the scripture about submission to husbands)  Why not make the vows so
  that BOTH parties vow to submit to ONE ANOTHER IN THE FEAR OF GOD??

Also, how valid are these marriages when they are 'doomed from the start' because they are officiated over, chanted over, by a bunch of men (and women) who are known pedophiles, adulterers, fornicators, lesbians, and gays?  INSIDE of a church building, to boot!?

It seems to me that the whole concept of 'church weddings' is asking for religious demons to infest the marriage....

Is it any wonder that over HALF the marriages officiated IN THE CHURCH end in divorce?

And now we have same sex marriages.  And everybody wants to get all up in arms about gays and lesbians legally allowed to marry.  But we have to look at this thing:

If the weddings/marriages between STRAIGHT FOLK who have these religious ceremonies within these religious institutions, officiated by a bunch of freaks don't last, and marriages between STRAIGHT FOLK is in such disarray, how can we honestly bash same sex marriages when different sex marriages have become a joke to so many????

Now please understand:  I am staunchly against same sex marriages.  Yall know my testimony.

But to try to IN-validate or make void - same sex marriages by using the 'examples' of different sex marriages is kind of ...well, FOOLISH!

See my article, First Gentlemen, First Ladies, And Other Foolishness In The Church

Think about it...the whole concept of having a wedding ceremony - IN A CHURCH - of having ceremonies period...is steeped in religiosity and lunacy!

Again, I wholeheartedly believe in the concept of marriage.  I think that marriage is a beautiful thing.

I just think the whole religious posturing of it needs to be TOTALLY revamped.

I don't think that another preacher or priest should officiate over another wedding!  REAL TALK!

Them jiggers are cursed from the get go...HOW CAN THEY POSSIBLY BLESS YOUR UNION IF THEY DOING ALL THE DIRT THEY ARE DOING ANYWAYS?

Then...you have to realize that the institution of CHURCH is a cursed institution.  It is currently under JUDGMENT.

I don't know about you, but I don't want no cursed folks within a cursed institution to officiate over NOTHING concerning MY life.

Just some things to ponder....

Sunday, September 15, 2013

WHERE Are You Shopping? Im Looking For A Church Home...


Where are you grocery shopping these days?  

I have noticed that groceries, fresh produce, meats, and grocery items in general have lost somewhat of their 'shelf life.'  The quality of products we normally purchase at the grocery store is not as fresh as it used to be.  Nor does it last as long as it used to.  

Not to mention that the prices have gone UP!

But even though this is a growing phenomena, how many of us still go to the grocery store - you know, that same store that continuously sell stale, poor quality products time and time again - even though we are totally dissatisfied with the products they sell?

How many times have we found ourselves running to that same store we complained about for a quick run?  To pick up a few items for dinner?  Or for a late night snack?  

Then we get home and find that the products have NOT changed.  The quality has NOT changed.  The prices?  They may have actually gone UP...but that's as far as it goes.

Why do we continuously do this?  
Why do we continue to frequent a store - or many stores - that by and large, continue to sell us genetically modified products created to last longer on the shelves but STILL go bad after a few days?  Or make us sick?  

Is it that we feel there are no other options?  Do we somehow feel trapped into grocery shopping?  And that at the local grocery stores, that continue to sell us over-priced, poor quality products....week in and week out?  And then have the nerve to have these 'sales' to make us believe that we are saving money, when, in actuality, we are not?

The store branch managers and franchisers do this because they know that you, the consumer, are going to obsess over WHAT ARE WE GONNA EAT?  

They also know you are a creature of CONVENIENCE.  You will do whatever it takes to make life more CONVENIENT.  It's inconvenient to go miles away to a farmer's market or another store - perhaps a Whole Foods store - not to mention even MORE pricey - so they do all these things - price-gouge, sell, poor quality products, hold 'sales' events to make the consumer believe they are saving money - to draw you into their STORES!

They know that for you to grow your own crops, for you to go out and kill your own cattle, to grind the meat, for you to make your own cleaning products, paper products and the such would take up WAY too much of your time...so they sell you the products they know you need to survive...at inflated prices...and most of the time NOT the best quality!

****These store branch managers sound a lot like these preachers in these churches.****

These preachers know you've been conditioned to believe that if you need Jesus, you got to go 'shopping' (or should I say 'church-hopping') for him and need to go to church to find Him.  



These preachers know the Word, but they dole it out in such POOR QUALITY, in such POOR CONDITIONS, they offer to you STALE manna, spoiled rotten meat, and then have the AUDACITY to sell it to you at exorbitant prices....and make you believe you have been 'fed' the Word of God!

They know that those prophecies, that Word, that sermon, that teaching series, etc. they are peddling to you is poison and hazardous to your spiritual health.  But they simply DO NOT CARE!



They also are banking on you being TOO LAZY to crack open your Word for YOURSELF and getting your OWN Word from the Lord...that would be WAY too inconvenient ... so they open up these church drive-thru franchises.  Where you can drive up to the church window, order the 'word' you want, get a quick word to satisfy your temporal hunger, and then drive off not realizing that every time you do so you are poisoning your spirit even MORE!

And you don't even realize by going from church to church you are injecting all kinds of different poisons into your spirit.  

Each type of poison requires its own specific type of antidote as a cure.  There is no one antidote that treats all types of poisonings.

An antidote is substance which oppose the effects of poisons without causing damage to body.  There are antidotes that prevent certain types of poisons from being absorbed into your system.  Then are antidotes that neutralize the poison making it ineffective.  Then still there are other antidotes that produce the opposite effects of the poison.

Each church building has its own specific type of 'poison,' if you will.  And one won't get 'poisoned' unless they continue to frequent and fellowship at said buildings.  To shop there.  To ingest what's being served there.  It's a spiritual thing, folks.

And because each type of church has their own brand of poison, if you get 'infected,' you will need a specific type of ANTIDOTE to be cured of it!

If you leave Church A and then think God is calling you to Church B, then after awhile start going to Church C to help them out in the ministry....only to find that you are 'better received' at Church D....

And this cycle continues for years on end....it is very conceivable that you will need 'antidotes,' to be 'cured from,' delivered from, SEVERAL different types of POISONS you picked up at these churches??????

And the more churches you've attended and been a part of, the longer it will take to be healed from all that nonsense.

All of this...only because you wouldn't just SIT STILL and HEAR FROM GOD FOR YOURSELF!

You wouldn't crack open your Word and allow the Spirit of God to feed you...and you trusted charlatains and wolves to feed you.

Contrary to popular religious belief, you do NOT need a preacher to feed you.  IF God sends one your way, the way to know He is telling the truth and it is TRUE MANNA is that it WILL line up with the Word of God.

Grow your own food.  Harvest your own Word.  Eat from YOUR OWN table...right there in YOUR HOUSE.

At least you KNOW what you're eating when you do!


Monday, September 02, 2013

The Harlot MANIFESTS!


NEVER BE SURPRISED AT WHAT A WHORE (STREET TERM-A HO!) WILL DO TO SURVIVE: 

Many within the church system are constantly allowing themselves to be shocked by the things that goes on within her walls. The Harlot Church NEVER WAS alive...or there were many 'shakings.' A lot of movement was going on...but NO life!

Now she is beginning to actually SEE her condition...and what we all see unfolding right B4 our eyes are merely her vain attempts to resuscitate herself.

Its really sad to behold....which is why it may be necessary to look away.

Not to be in denial. Look at it. Acknowledge it IS going down....but then look away in disdain and disgust...just like you would in the red light district if you saw a ho on her knees in an alley...

That's what it's come to in the church...

It will become necessary for you to observe the practices of a prostitute to begin to understand what is happening in the church system today.

I'm not the one who originated this....

God calls the fake church the Harlot Church in His Word.

He warns His Remnant to COME OUT FROM AMONG THEM AND BE SEPARATE....

There are many references to 'the harlot' in the Word of God. Find them for yourselves!

But if you look at the life of a prostitute, a whore, or (more contemporary) a HO, you will find that a HO can be a MAN or a WOMAN that would do ANYTHING for a dollar, a meal, a place to stay...to survive basically.

They have made a life decision that they won't go about taking care of matters legally or in a way that will not put them in jeopardy. NO.

They decide to take the easy road, get on their knees, bend over or open their legs for everything that will stimulate them and give them something...

Jeremiah 3:6
....she is gone up upon every high mountain and under every green tree, and there hath played the harlot.

Jeremiah 3:1
.... thou hast played the harlot with many lovers...

Jeremiah 22:21-22

...I spake unto thee in thy prosperity; but thou said, I will not hear. This hath been thy manner from thy youth, that thou obey not my voice. The wind shall eat up all thy pastors, and thy lovers shall go into captivity: surely then shalt thou be ashamed and confounded for all thy wickedness.


Instead of working for a living, they figure they'd go the easy road and trick.

They do not care if they catch diseases, get pregnant or give birth to children and raise them in their present condition. ESPECIALLY IF THEY ARE HOOKED ON/ADDICTED TO DRUGS and trick to support their 'habit,' they will really throw caution to the wind and do whatever it takes to get that next hit!

This is the reality for many within the church system today.

It is easier for them to rely on others to 'give them a word' than it is to WAIT ON THE LORD and let Him give you a word. Or stand on the LAST WORD He gave to you (no matter HOW long of a time has passed since He gave you the Word!).

Why?

Because that would mean you would be walking BY FAITH and NOT by sight. Or feeling. Or smell. Or any of your five senses. If whatever doesn't tantalize YOUR FLESH, then you think you are hungry for God, when you are nothing more than HOOKED ON A FEELING!

HOOKED ON RELIGION. HOOKED ON BEING HIGH IN THE SPIRIT. HOOKED ON BEING IN DENIAL. HOOKED ON DECEPTION.

A church addict will do ANYTHING for their next hit.

MANY church addicts spent their LAST to go see Mega-Mess 2013 this past week. There was indeed a lot of foolishness that went on in there....but by FAR the CLIMAX of it all was when Movie Mogul and Idol Tyler Perry supposedly preached/testified at the Potter's House after donating $1 million dollars towards the Youth Center there...and then laid hands on T.D. Jakes...after spouting off 'tongues.'

Watch the video HERE.

The following is a 'testimony' of a Mega-Mess 2013 attendee:

"...The last session on megafest was today..... And I just have to thank God for real..... Like I was treated soo great there...... I felt what God says I am special..... Omg the WOD's are going to be so amazing u guys God has truly ignited my passion for me to give u what he had placed in me..... I can go on about how I have been blessed out here I mean from free close seat passes to ppl taking me out to eat.... I had ppl coming to me stressing that I come down here and do hair..... Ppl asking me what do I do and am I famous.... And for some reason I kept attracting all these first ladys of great pastors..... i mean telling me that my presence make them feel god.....This one girl after i worshiped ask me if i could please take a picture of me..... i mean the love of God I felt out in Dallas was amazing..... And I am Sooo grateful..... But Guys I am Sooo proud of me.... I mean from someone who has been counted out time and time again.... Rejected.... Mistreated..... And heck persecuted and lied on I mean it just goes on..... But I say this to say I am proud of me because I didn't quit and for the first time in my life I'm no longer depending on who is there for me or not who likes me or not who believes in me or not..... Because God believes in me and because I was driven off of how he feels about me I took a leap of faith to go to this event I planned this trip for myself by myself..... And I just feel Sooo great and Sooo on top of the world and I just thank God for showing me that I am more than a conqueror...... And I am more than qualified to go after what he has for me by any means necessary..."

I'm sure some of you know folks like this...church celebrity groupies who attend their 'concerts,' then go backstage after their 'performances' so they can sleep with their favorite preachers, or prophets or apostles. And I am NOT talking about sex either!

I'm talking about spiritual adultery. I am talking about millions of people drinking the Kool Aid. They wouldn't know sound doctrine or the voice of God if it slapped them in the face.

And I don't know if you notice the 'trend' within the church system to make preachers out of celebrities (and vice versa). But you need to understand: THIS IS NO ACCIDENT!

The more famous and popular, the more people will accept their message or doctrine. The more money can be sowed into their 'ministries/brothels.' The more they can 'grow,' or recruit more gullible souls into lies and deception.

The HARLOT CHURCH HAS TRULY MANIFESTED HERSELF AS SUCH!

She has drank the wine of those of this world so she could be prosperous.

Notice the life of high level prostitutes. High level prostitutes only 'serve' high level clients. Clients that can afford to 'pay them' after their services are done.

Tyler Perry is a high level whore. And he will 'sleep with,' go into alliance with, partner with, make films and plays with ANYONE who can 'afford' his price.

But this is not to demonize TP. There are MANY TP's within the church system, as there are MANY pimps, brothels and madams in the church. Those who FUNCTION as such!

Many don't know this, but Richard Pryor's mother was a whore. His daddy was a pimp. His uncles were pimps. His GRANDMOTHER was the madam of the house. She actually SOLD her daughter to these johns!

Richard was raised by his grandmother. He worshiped and idolized the ground his grandma walked on. In a powerful documentaryRichard Pryor: Omit The Logichis grandmother would often allow all kinds of influences in front of Pryor as a child...and he was not allowed to talk about it or protest...or speak out on the abuse.

According to www.richardpryor.com/biography.php"Pryor was one of four children raised in his grandmother's brothel, Richard experienced rape at the age of six (by a teenaged neighbor) and molestation by a Catholic priest during catechism. He watched his mother perform sexual acts with Peoria's mayor..."

I bring this up to give some insight into the life of a hooker and those under her influence.

Pryor's grandmother can be likened to the many so-called 'mothers of the church' who are so revered, idolized, worshiped, adored and love...but I ask FOR WHAT?

For prostituting the babes in the church?

For covering for these 'pastors,' sometimes for decades?

For perpetrating a fraud?

For funding this nonsense all their lives?

For facilitating the turning out of a generation of would-be people who came to church because they LOVED God and wanted to be saved, but only found dysfunction and abuse at the hands of those who were supposed to be their protectors?

The point is that harlots are dangerous people. They don't start out that way...they usually get in the game because it is the only way they can survive...they feel they have NO WAY OUT.

Many in the church systems are being trained to become spiritual WHORES. And once that happens, the only way for them to turn around is that THEY have to make a DECISION to COME OUT of WHOREDOMS!

They have to turn their backs on that lifestyle.

They only became a harlot because their mother was a Harlot. What else would they become?????

The 'daddies' in the Harlot Church are the pimps. They pimp anyone who will allow themselves to be pimped. Many prostitutes don't feel 'safe' on the streets, so they go and get A COVERING (i.e. a pimp) who is supposed to protect their best interests and look out for them...

Only problem with that is that most of the time, these pimps, these 'coverings,' these wolves in sheeps' clothing, are only exploiting the prostitute, running game, using them for what they can get. And then when they're done, the pimps/pastors 'spit them out.'

DO YOU SEE THE CO-RELATION TO HARLOTRY/PROSTITUTION AND THE HARLOT CHURCH SYSTEM YET????

What more evidence do you need to know that the Harlot Church has indeed manifested herself? And that it is time to COME OUT THE BROTHEL/CHURCH?

The Harlot Church has done nothing more than bred a bunch of harlot babies....

And-as is the case so many times-when you grow up in that environment, it is VERY difficult-sometimes impossible-to get that lifestyle OUT of you! (LOOK at what happened to Richard Pryor)

You grow up to become what you saw growing up...johns, tricks, hos and pimps. THAT'S your family!

Unless a harlot WANTS to get out, they won't. Church folks won't come out of the Harlot because they have become the harlot and enjoy the benefits and privileges of harlotry.

And as long as they are doing that, it probably will be necessary for those who know better to part ways with practicing harlots who don't want out...

Tuesday, July 02, 2013

Meagan Good is Not the Problem...These Nasty Preachers Are!


It often has been said that preachers are the nastiest, freakiest things walking out here.  They are nastier than the pimp, the drug dealer, the guys who own strips joints and massage parlors.  Even nastier than those provocateurs of the porn industry.  So called christian men make up a mass majority of porn customers anyway.

With that being said, I want to say that we can't be too hard on actress Meagan Good for her J-Lo type dress she wore to the BET awards.  While it was in poor taste, and I do believe that she really wants to be saved and serve God, I have a WHOLE lot to say about her nasty husband who allowed her to leave the house like that.

I think awhile back, Good and hubby Devon Franklin were going around bragging about how they were going to wait til the honeymoon to consummate their marriage.  Now, I didn't pay much attention to it, I'm a busy lady.  But the first thought that came into my mind was 'ITS NONE OF MY BUSINESS.'  So I didn't care.

Now we see why they were so adamant about pushing abstinence til marriage.  

Preacher Franklin is a freak!

The reason why he didn't say anything is because he married Meagan Good BECAUSE she is a hotty. That's why he married her in the first place.  He got a nasty, stink, perverse, lustful spirit in HIM and she fulfilled it. I mean the number of so called 'first ladies' that are plainly freaks is astounding. But this is only because these nasty old preachers WANT them that way. That reality show about the first ladies that came out earlier this year....freaks. We can't get on the ladies -even though its trifling. Its what these nasty preachers want.

Only a freak who is just so glad to finally get some would allow his wife to show all her jewels in public like that.  

You guys already know my stand on going to church.  This is one of the many reasons why I won't go.

These preachers publicly say they are for abstinence, holiness and the such, but behind closed doors, they are worse freaks than the freaks they preach against!

And then it all comes out in the wash....some air their own dirty laundry....(as in the case of the reality shows coming out of the church).  And others are exposed by enemies and people who get the dirt on them.

I heard a preacher say awhile back that there was a trend of preachers wanting their 'first ladies' to be more and more seductive, provocative, sexy...this was in the 1980s.  And this was a so called pentecostal church, where the women can't wear pants, makeup or jewelry.  

Porn was popular in the pentecostal church back then!

WHY is it that church men, religious men, are such perverts?  

WHY are they so sensically driven?  WHY is it that these men so driven by what drives THEIR senses?  

WHY do they need freaky, sexy wives to fulfill their lusts?  Or spirits?

WHY do they need to have Nikki Minaj, Rihanna, Beyonce type women as wives...and then get in church or on TV and brag on how they are 'hitting' that?

Clearly, the 'mendove God' have a problem with their flesh.

THIS is why they don't have a problem with their wives coming outside looking like porn stars.  

This is NOT a negative reflection on the women, but the men. The fact of matter is that what goes on in these peoples' bedrooms is NONE OF OUR BUSINESS.

Sex between husband and wife is a sacred, beautiful thing.  But it should ALSO be a PRIVATE thing.

If you are freaks behind closed doors, KEEP YOUR DOORS CLOSED!

You should not allow your wife to come out looking like she just stepped out of a Playboy magazine, 'Mandove God.'

Woman of God, you need to put some more clothes on!  

EVEN IF YOU DON'T DO CHURCH, whatever happened to modesty, discretion, tact, and taste?

NO man who truly loves his wife should feel comfortable in her coming out the house looking like a street walker.

It speaks to the depravity AND the downplaying of marriage between man and woman.

THIS is ONE of the reasons why the world doesn't even pay it any mind....marriage between husband and wife...ONE man and ONE woman.

They don't respect the institution themselves.  So why should anyone else?

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Thursday, June 13, 2013

Barbies DON'T Get Blessed! REAL Women of God DO!



TOO many women are primping and propping their hair, their nails, their feet, their flesh and NEGLECTING their SPIRITS.

I look at all these women (in church and beyond) who are crying for husbands all day long. They follow some folks that tell them 'Oh, dont you worry, baby. God's getting ready to send you your husband!'

But they think its about what they LOOK LIKE and not about WHO THEY ARE.

These poor men get these fly young honey dips and don't find out until the honeymoon that they married a schizophrenic, bi-polar, mentally ill, no cooking, won't wash a dish, don't know how to pray, cry at the drop of a HAT, don't know NO word, weak as a hangnail....

Need I go on?

Look, girls.

IF you are praying for a husband, you may get him initially with your eyes, your body, your sex appeal.

But you won't KEEP him that way!

These men are tired of the L'il Kims and Rihanna's...all up in the so called 'church!'

Instead of trying to turn these men out with your bootays, your weave, your heavy makeup, your spikes, and the provocative dress, IF you're in the 'market' for a husband...GET YOUR MIND RIGHT! GET YOUR SPIRIT RIGHT!!!!!

Bipolar, cray cray, demonic, possessed, religious and Jezebel comes in Barbie flavor, too!

Men are tired of it, Ladies. Y'all done prayed and prayed for God to grow the men up. Make them the head. Let them take the lead spiritually.

WELL GUESS WHAT?

GOD IS ANSWERING YOUR PRAYERS!

BE CAREFUL WHAT YOU PRAY FOR!!!!

YOU DONE PRAYED FOR THE MEN FOR SO LONG, BEEN ON THEIR TIP FOR SO LONG, SO THIRSTY FOR SO LONG, HOLLERING, FASTING AND SCREAMING FOR A HUSBAND FOR SO LONG, FOLLOWING BYNUM AND THEM FOR SO LONG TRYNA GET A MAN...YOU DONE NEGLECTED YOUR SPIRITS!!!!!!!!

The church and the world (and can you REALLY tell the difference nowadays?) tell you you have to be sexy, fine, got it going on, and play dumb to 'get a man.'

Smh.

Delilah didn't have Samson for long. Bathsheba got David by trapping him into pregnancy...but look at all the hell they had to go thru...and she STILL was not David's ONLY wife ....after ALL of that she went thru with that man, too!

Jezebel. Well, we all know what happened to her...she thought she was big and bad enough to rule ALL the prophets...

No man is gonna be enthralled with the bootay, the eyes, the hair, the figure, your techniques in bed, or that fake anointing you operate in.

God is growing the men UP. And they don't have time for little girls.

They're gonna pass you RIGHT on by for a LADY, a WOMAN who took to the time to beautify HER SPIRIT!

The BITTER Truth!


I don't know who came up with the term THE BITTER TRUTH, but I absolutely LOVE it!

Many of us think that the truth is this sweet to the taste, pleasant, sweet smelling, tickling the senses (the flesh).

Often, I find that the truth is NOTHING BUT sweet!

The truth is HEAVY.  HARD HITTING.  ABRUPT.  NEVER POLITICALLY OR RELIGIOUSLY CORRECT.  

Truth interrupts our plans.  It sinks our agendas.  It most often cancels and eradicates what WE want.  

Because the TRUTH is bitter to the taste, those who administer it are OFTEN called bitter.

Are doctors and pharmacists bitter?  How about Nursing Assistants and practitioners?  Or Patient Care Advocates?

Some of the nicest, caring, kindest, most servant like people I have EVER had the pleasure of knowing are in the medical field.  I have been blessed to have had great experiences with many in the medical field.  

They genuinely care about the well being of their patients.  Even when administering their medical care OFTEN requires them to give treatments and medications that are - at first - EXTREMELY painful and unpleasant.

How many of you have had a colonoscopy?  Or a mammogram?  Or had a catheter?  Or had to recover from some sort of surgery?

It HURT and was VERY uncomfortable, wasn't it????

Well, God speaks through folks who are a lot like doctors, nurses, others who work in the medical field.  

OFTENTIMES, they have to give a hard word.  They ARE on assignment (I know that makes some folks cringe...but I STILL believe that God uses folks!)

God will tell someone to say something, write something, that may offend.  Some will misinterpret that as bitterness...but its NOT because the person giving it is, in fact, bitter.

ITS BECAUSE THEY TASTE THAT WORD, THAT ADVICE, THAT COUNSEL, THAT TEACHING, THAT REBUKE, THAT WRITING...AND IT IS NOT SWEET!  

As soon as that word hits that tongue, they make this face.  'That doesn't taste good!"  They balk.



If you got a word that 'tastes good,' if you come across a teaching that appeases and pacifies you, if your senses are all tingly and warm feeling...you got the fuzzies reading something....

CHANCES ARE IT IS NOT FROM GOD!!!!!!

Do you remember JEREMIAH: THE 'BITTER' PROPHET?

When God speaks through you, OFTEN folks will want to label you as 'bitter.'

Jeremiah was a prophet who was OFTEN misunderstood and labeled. Folks tried to sum him up based upon the HARD, BITTER word and prophecies God spoke through him. In Jeremiah 15, Jeremiah was feeling sorry for himself, saying that 'he' was the source of derision and conflict that was upon Israel. Why?

Because God was consistently speaking JUDGMENT on Israel...THRU the mouth of the prophet! And that speaking forth of the word of GOD was a constant source of inner conflict for Jeremiah. He began to feel like because of the Word God gave, it was somehow his fault.

The folks sure made him feel that way!

I want you to read Jeremiah 15-17. In Jeremiah 16...God sent warning telling the people to not have kids or marry while in captivity.

SURELY once Jeremiah OBEYED GOD and gave SUCH A HARD WORD to GOD'S CHOSEN PEOPLE, he was accused of being 'bitter.'

But he was not.

He was just OBEDIENT.

How does the saying goes?
Dont hate the messenger, HEED THE MESSAGE!

Monday, June 03, 2013

DOWN LOW, GAY OR LESBIAN...BE FREE!


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